aCcEpTaNcE...

Last week I turn a year older… :-)

Yah, I know it’s about time to let go of the negatives and fit in the right shoe and be mature enough. It’s also a blessing to add another candle to blow in my birthday cake... Years had passed and gone and here I am still looking forward to celebrate more wonderful birthday’s with hubby and my family. Thank you Lord for all the blessings…

Maybe most of you have noticed that I didn’t blog any relative post pertaining to Christmas wish list neither a New Year resolution for me to achieve or to comply with. Well, I have decided to simply go with the flow, for it will give less pressure and heart aches, though I have my goal for the year and a promise to myself.

Starting this Year I'll throw all the rubbish in my heart and be open for ACCEPTANCE, yes you read it right, i have to start practicing this from this day onwards. Not all of you know what we’re going through, except for some who visits our blog frequently. I used to be stricken and affected whenever I receive news about pregnancy of close family/relative/friends I dwell and cry on it, in which i believe is common to all TTCer's. Don’t get me wrong, I am happy for them and I have nothing against their pregnancy, it’s just the hurt feeling and a pinch in the heart because we fervently prayed for a baby to complete us as a family and yet we have none. We thought that conceiving would be easy until it became a battle full of struggles and due to that I digress. I suppose it’s about time to accept things positively and lightly. This is not an easy task for me but I have to make this pass.

Pregnancy is eating my head in the past and to start the year right, I didn’t shed a tear when somebody told me that they’re having a baby. My feelings didn’t sink either shift to loneliness or envy. I just hope that this is a good sign that I am slowly moving on and have accepted god’s plan for us. Just when I thought planning for a baby will be simple and easy, well it proves me wrong, at least on our case. How I wish that getting preggo is just like a wedding, baptism, etc. that we have the ability to put into calendar and choose our desired dates, but the truth is it’s all in God’s hands. Luck and chances plays it’s role on having a bundle of joy, I guess God is being sweet and saving the best for us and wants to give it unexpectedly, so be it. I believe ACCEPTANCE is the starting point to move on and live life positively.

Learn to live one step at a time. It might take a little longer to have a family of our own, we’ll be patiently waiting for that day to come, who knows it may come next month, next year or the year after, more so, God answer all our prayers and will only be given in his time… As long as we live we will never stop waiting for that time to come…

With clean heart I have opened my heart for ACCEPTANCE, my starting point to live happily. All we ask for is a little understanding and sensitivity from others for us to move on easily.

Hoping that Year 2009 will be our YEAR!