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Hubby asked me what gift i want for our 13th (bf/gf) anniversary...

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I quickly answered that i want this...

guess what, he did give in...

he never fails me, he sure knows how to make me happy!

The bratinella --- me :-)

Thanks honey, mwah--mwah--mwah!

I'm LoVin' it...

Can't wait for the next one ;-) wink---peace honey!
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LiFe Is PeCuLiAr...

Life is peculiar nobody lives an easy and perfect life… Sometimes you want to give up and simply ran away because you thought it is the easiest thing to do… It also comes to a point that you’re sick and tired of covering and pretending because it’s never an easy task… You wanted to hang on but you don’t know for how long you can… And the hardest part of it is regretting and wished that you’ve never been there…

I don’t know how many times I have to walk on this road but it seems the arrow points on the same direction again and again, yet I am still hopeful to see diversions ahead… For now all I want is to breathe fresh air and exhale all the toxics I inhaled for quite sometime now… I am longing for an immense tranquility even if it’s only for a while…

Things are beyond my control and for the meantime I have to go with the flow --- how long I have to live with it, for that I don’t know… This is one ironic experience in life that I wished I never chanced upon… I hate regretting but I guess I can’t deny that this is what it’s all about… I don’t know if it’s my fault, honestly I am tired of blaming myself all this time… I should have not believed on those flowery words coming from a glib tongue, I just hope it’s not yet too late to make amends and revive my old self…

Now my journey to escape is about to begin and wake up from this bad dream… I will fight and won’t let anybody spoil my day neither my life… While all I want is to live a peaceful yet blissful life… To start with, I will pick up the shattered pieces of me and put it back in the locked safe where it belongs… I know it won’t be easy for it might entail hurt bearing failures but I have to be strong this time around, yes I have to… If my senses serve me right --- the battle to win back my self respect is about to begin… I have to ready myself for I know my chance of winning is way too small for this ain’t my cup of tea...

Shrug it off… I guess it is time to review my lessons and learn from it…

Hmmmm, camera rolling --- act as if you are --- blind, mute and deaf…
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BF/GF --- 13th AnNiVeRsArY...

"Colour Everywhere"

by: Christian Bautista

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Used to seeing black and white

Never really in between

Waiting on the love of my life

To come into my dreams

Everything is shades of gray

Never really blues or green

Needed someone else to turn to

Someone who could help me learn to see

All the beauty that was waiting for me

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[chorus:]

You, you put the blue back in the sky

You put the rainbow in my eyes

A silver lining in my prayers

And now there's colour everywhere

You put the red back in the rules

Just when i needed it the most

You came along to show you care

And now there's colour everywhere

Everywhere

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My life is so predictable

Never any mystery

But ever since you shined the light

All of that was history

Now i have a hand to hold

And a reason to believe

There's someone in my life worth living for

I was hanging around just wishing on a star

To put the happiness back in my heart and...

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[chorus:]

You, you put the blue back in the sky

You put the rainbow in my eyes

A silver lining in my prayers

You care and now there's colour everywhere

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[bridge:]

Left those hazy days behind me

Never to return again

Now they're just a fading memory'cause baby it's all so clear to see

The beauty that is waiting there for me

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[chorus:]

You, you put the blue back in the sky

You put the rainbow in my eyes

A silver lining in my prayers

And now there's colour everywhere

A silver lining in my prayers

And now there's colour everywhere

You came along to show you care

And now there's colour everywhere
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Celebrating our bf/gf years...
happy 13th Anniversary!

mahal na mahal kita HONEY ko...

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WiTcH...

Yesterday… a kiss from a black witch…
Oh my… I've gasp my breath…

It was indeed an odd scene...

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What the heck...

I'm left with no other choice but to bare with it...

LaZy...

No updates = laziness...

Sorry, got to do a lot of thinking lately...

Nah, don't worry I'll get over this, hopefully soon...

c yah!

HaTe MySeLf...

How I wish I am numb for I hate what I am feeling right now… What’s happening is really mind blowing and I can’t get away with that… Just when I thought that things will be ironed out very soon, well i guess my presumption is wrong --- I hate my stupid thoughts because it tends to break my emotions… Am I stupid? I damn hate it when negativity eats my conk head… This time I am at point blank --- so shoot me… I want to scream and bang my head just to get back on my senses and wake up from this nightmare… I am starting to hate myself for I know that I have loosened up… All I know is that I am torn --- tell me what else I can do…

This is too much, if only I can do magic I’d love to disappear right now…

For now, all I can do is to keep my freaking mouth shut… darn it --- I hate regretting…

TrYiNg To CoPe Up...

Half of the year had past and yet here I am tormented --- on a different level though! I tried to recall the things which have connection with the incident that suddenly transpired, to at least point out my mistake and have it corrected but unfortunately I find it doubly hard to find out where I’ve gone wrong… Believe me, I am over cautious, I usually keep myself mum and will not say a single word if I am not sure about it, simply because I don’t want to be misunderstood or rather I want to play safe… Despite being careful and very picky or choosy of words coming out of my mouth, well sorry for me because still I have put myself into trouble… Well that’s what you call tough luck I guess…

When that bad incident happened, the first thing came into my mind is to quit because I thought that’s the easiest way to do to get over it… But as days goes by, I realized that quitting is not the only solution and I have to prove them wrong. If in the past I easily quit without clearing myself well I won’t be doing that again… I won’t do a French exit this time around, I will make sure that I will be able to take back what they have taken from me --- quite intriguing eh! --- I’m not asking for payback, all I want is for them to realize their mistakes... Imagine every morning I have to face the mirror just to tell or remind myself to move on---move on---move on, ghesssh, I have to do it over and over to at least ease my heavy feeling and ready myself for the day… I don’t know how long I have to do it, but I guess I might need to practice doing it more often to make the healing fast… It’s really hard to pretend that you’re OK while the truth is you’re not, but then I have to endure covering my sad face with a happy mask…

Honestly, one of the reasons why I am staying is because I want to save a good friendship and I wish I could…