Life is peculiar nobody lives an easy and perfect life… Sometimes you want to give up and simply ran away because you thought it is the easiest thing to do… It also comes to a point that you’re sick and tired of covering and pretending because it’s never an easy task… You wanted to hang on but you don’t know for how long you can… And the hardest part of it is regretting and wished that you’ve never been there…
I don’t know how many times I have to walk on this road but it seems the arrow points on the same direction again and again, yet I am still hopeful to see diversions ahead… For now all I want is to breathe fresh air and exhale all the toxics I inhaled for quite sometime now… I am longing for an immense tranquility even if it’s only for a while…
Things are beyond my control and for the meantime I have to go with the flow --- how long I have to live with it, for that I don’t know… This is one ironic experience in life that I wished I never chanced upon… I hate regretting but I guess I can’t deny that this is what it’s all about… I don’t know if it’s my fault, honestly I am tired of blaming myself all this time… I should have not believed on those flowery words coming from a glib tongue, I just hope it’s not yet too late to make amends and revive my old self…
Now my journey to escape is about to begin and wake up from this bad dream… I will fight and won’t let anybody spoil my day neither my life… While all I want is to live a peaceful yet blissful life… To start with, I will pick up the shattered pieces of me and put it back in the locked safe where it belongs… I know it won’t be easy for it might entail hurt bearing failures but I have to be strong this time around, yes I have to… If my senses serve me right --- the battle to win back my self respect is about to begin… I have to ready myself for I know my chance of winning is way too small for this ain’t my cup of tea...
Shrug it off… I guess it is time to review my lessons and learn from it…
Hmmmm, camera rolling --- act as if you are --- blind, mute and deaf…
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