Lord, if this is a sign for me to move on, let it be...
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I’ve been working here for 3 years. Those years are full of adjustments. Ups and downs I may say... Nevertheless, I am confident to say that I’ve been a good employee, colleague and a friend to my co-workers. I’ve never been absent and maybe I’ve been late for sometime. I have tried my best to be as what they expected... I have tried to jive with the needs and wants of each and everyone. Nobody in this group can tell that I’ve been rude nor arrogant... I have been kind and sweet enough in everything I do and say. But I think they never counted it.
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Today is the proof and finally I realize that what they said was true, “People don’t see the good things you have done, they will always peak on the negative side and then pull you down ‘till you can’t get on your feet”. This is what I have learned after an incident happened yesterday.
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Yesterday was just an ordinary day I may say. Nothing much to do in the office, maintenance people also did some painting works in the office during working hours. Time was running too slow yesterday, we’ve been waiting for the clock to tick. It was a cloudy, windy and rainy day… Alas, finally the most awaited time has come, it's time to go…. As usual, I have to inform Big B that I will be leaving…
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Little S: Bye (with my usual wave)
Big B: NO YOU CAN’T GO
Little S: Bye (still smiling and waving)
Big B: NOBODY CAN GO AS LONG AS I AM HERE STAYING
Little S: ?!?! (Surprise and don’t know what to say)
Big B: YOU HAVE TO STAY
Little S: I’ll just call my car lift and tell him to go
Big B: (High tone of voice calling my name)
Little S: (Turned my back away from him to return to my seat)
Big B: (Still shouting my name)
Little S: (Back on my seat, crying while pretending that I don’t hear anything)
Big B: (Came to my seat) WHAT HAPPENED TO YOU, YOU CAN’T TAKE ANY JOKE
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Yesterday was just an ordinary day I may say. Nothing much to do in the office, maintenance people also did some painting works in the office during working hours. Time was running too slow yesterday, we’ve been waiting for the clock to tick. It was a cloudy, windy and rainy day… Alas, finally the most awaited time has come, it's time to go…. As usual, I have to inform Big B that I will be leaving…
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Little S: Bye (with my usual wave)
Big B: NO YOU CAN’T GO
Little S: Bye (still smiling and waving)
Big B: NOBODY CAN GO AS LONG AS I AM HERE STAYING
Little S: ?!?! (Surprise and don’t know what to say)
Big B: YOU HAVE TO STAY
Little S: I’ll just call my car lift and tell him to go
Big B: (High tone of voice calling my name)
Little S: (Turned my back away from him to return to my seat)
Big B: (Still shouting my name)
Little S: (Back on my seat, crying while pretending that I don’t hear anything)
Big B: (Came to my seat) WHAT HAPPENED TO YOU, YOU CAN’T TAKE ANY JOKE
FROM ME ANYMORE? STOP THAT… YOU CAN GO
Little S: (My head bowed and still crying)
Big B: (Went back to his room with anger)
Little S: (Still trying to hold back my tears, but I can’t make it)
Big B: (Called my extension)
Little S: (Answered the phone) Yes Sir…
Big B: IF YOU CAN’T TAKE ANY JOKE FROM ME, STARTING TODAY I WILL
NOT CRACK ANY JOKE TO YOU…
Little S: Sorry….. (still crying)
Big B: FORGET YOUR SORRY, YOU CAN GO (Hanged the phone)
Little S: (I stood up, get my purse and without looking at him, I left the office)
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I was surprise with those words he uttered, never expected that things will turn out that way… Honestly, I have tried to control my temper then, but unfortunately I can’t… I know it’s very shallow, well sorry but I can’t help it… This scene mostly happened (excluding the crying scene) and I am really fed up… I know he is the boss, but what the heck, give me the chance to be the boss of my own self after office hours… Hey Big B, if you can only give a damn to allow us to express our hurt feelings sometimes… Be considerately sensitive, not all people can play jokes with you anytime and the fact that your tone was so flat and there’s no trace on your face that you’re joking, who the hell can tell that you’re just kidding… don’t ever take away our rights as an employee, we’re also human, we also have feelings… Sometimes it’s hard to move my feet forward… If I’ll say my goodbyes after office, there are two things to expect, it’s either he will just nod or pissed my ass off… If I’ll run away after office without informing Big B, I am sure the next day he will ask me why I didn’t inform him that I’ll be leaving… Now, can somebody tell what to do in this kind of dilemma?!?
Little S: (My head bowed and still crying)
Big B: (Went back to his room with anger)
Little S: (Still trying to hold back my tears, but I can’t make it)
Big B: (Called my extension)
Little S: (Answered the phone) Yes Sir…
Big B: IF YOU CAN’T TAKE ANY JOKE FROM ME, STARTING TODAY I WILL
NOT CRACK ANY JOKE TO YOU…
Little S: Sorry….. (still crying)
Big B: FORGET YOUR SORRY, YOU CAN GO (Hanged the phone)
Little S: (I stood up, get my purse and without looking at him, I left the office)
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I was surprise with those words he uttered, never expected that things will turn out that way… Honestly, I have tried to control my temper then, but unfortunately I can’t… I know it’s very shallow, well sorry but I can’t help it… This scene mostly happened (excluding the crying scene) and I am really fed up… I know he is the boss, but what the heck, give me the chance to be the boss of my own self after office hours… Hey Big B, if you can only give a damn to allow us to express our hurt feelings sometimes… Be considerately sensitive, not all people can play jokes with you anytime and the fact that your tone was so flat and there’s no trace on your face that you’re joking, who the hell can tell that you’re just kidding… don’t ever take away our rights as an employee, we’re also human, we also have feelings… Sometimes it’s hard to move my feet forward… If I’ll say my goodbyes after office, there are two things to expect, it’s either he will just nod or pissed my ass off… If I’ll run away after office without informing Big B, I am sure the next day he will ask me why I didn’t inform him that I’ll be leaving… Now, can somebody tell what to do in this kind of dilemma?!?
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To be fair with Big B, he’s quite good but still be ready to expect the least expected… I’ve mentioned to Big B before that it’s really hard for me to differentiate when he’s joking and when he’s serious on what he is saying… Anyhoo, maybe he stands with the saying “THE BOSS IS ALWAYS RIGHT”… I think it would be better for him not to joke with me, at least I will know that he’s serious on the things he’s saying…
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Today, he came early (as in surprisingly early, beyond his usual timings), he went to his room and shut the door close… what a crap… he then went out and pass by my table, As usual I greeted him Good Morning, well he just stared at me and never replied… and now he left for the day… what to do yani…
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I am sure this will be settled, but when, that I don’t know… Though we can never win back the old ways we had...
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Today, he came early (as in surprisingly early, beyond his usual timings), he went to his room and shut the door close… what a crap… he then went out and pass by my table, As usual I greeted him Good Morning, well he just stared at me and never replied… and now he left for the day… what to do yani…
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I am sure this will be settled, but when, that I don’t know… Though we can never win back the old ways we had...
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