Most of them noticed that I express myself best through writing, true enough.
A short background how it all started, way back in high school I was then enrolled in an exclusive school for girls. In our school, we have this so called “ON” thing, I’m sure if you had experienced an all girls school you can probably relate on what I am saying. On my own view, let me explain the term “ON”, it’s like a BF--GF thing but the difference is that it’s a girlfriend--girlfriend thing (GF--GF) but it doesn’t mean that we’re lesbian because we’re not. “ON” is meant to have a steady companion or let’s simply say a buddy. I have an “ON” then, though not that serious and I can say that it’s not as complicated as having a BF because we only communicate and express ourselves thru writing and nothing more than that given that we also celebrate monthsary and anniversary. We mainly exchange letters, so imagine almost everyday I used to write a letter to keep our communication on going and I have done that round the clock for almost 2 years. The relationship doesn’t involve obligations and it’s only the piece of paper that keeps you tied. So this is where it all began, the culprit why writing is my best medium in terms of expression.
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“This is only my opinion about “ON”, others might object maybe because there are certain levels or classifications with regards to GF--GF relationship”.
A short background how it all started, way back in high school I was then enrolled in an exclusive school for girls. In our school, we have this so called “ON” thing, I’m sure if you had experienced an all girls school you can probably relate on what I am saying. On my own view, let me explain the term “ON”, it’s like a BF--GF thing but the difference is that it’s a girlfriend--girlfriend thing (GF--GF) but it doesn’t mean that we’re lesbian because we’re not. “ON” is meant to have a steady companion or let’s simply say a buddy. I have an “ON” then, though not that serious and I can say that it’s not as complicated as having a BF because we only communicate and express ourselves thru writing and nothing more than that given that we also celebrate monthsary and anniversary. We mainly exchange letters, so imagine almost everyday I used to write a letter to keep our communication on going and I have done that round the clock for almost 2 years. The relationship doesn’t involve obligations and it’s only the piece of paper that keeps you tied. So this is where it all began, the culprit why writing is my best medium in terms of expression.
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“This is only my opinion about “ON”, others might object maybe because there are certain levels or classifications with regards to GF--GF relationship”.
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Until I graduated from that “ON” thing and finally moved on to have a BF. It wasn’t easy to adjust though I hadn’t change my style, I still write what I want to say and never been vocal at all because I thought writing was something usual in a relationship. In the past, my relationships failed because I’ve never been vocal, imagine each relationship ended thru a scribbled note. I have not experience any formal break up, as in talking face to face starting from my first BF down to the last. I find talking more strenuous than writing. Funny thing is I can write iloveyou but I don’t have the courage to utter those words, but now it stands corrected I can say it to hubby anytime I want and I’m proud of it, hubby can attest to that.
Now it’s still the same though in a different way --- texting or email. When I am overly angry, I’ll just be quiet but wait ‘til your mobile beeps, you might receive a nasty message coming from me (at least I’m not a nagger who never stops talking – LoL!). I guess it’s already too late for me to change my style because I’ve been used to it and those people have tolerated my wrong approach. I admit this isn’t right I should have the voice to express myself (come on, consider this blog as my voice).
I will stand to be who I am and not what they want me to be...
Now it’s still the same though in a different way --- texting or email. When I am overly angry, I’ll just be quiet but wait ‘til your mobile beeps, you might receive a nasty message coming from me (at least I’m not a nagger who never stops talking – LoL!). I guess it’s already too late for me to change my style because I’ve been used to it and those people have tolerated my wrong approach. I admit this isn’t right I should have the voice to express myself (come on, consider this blog as my voice).
I will stand to be who I am and not what they want me to be...
This is how I express myself, so take it or leave it?!?
It's good to be true...
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