It’s been 2 grueling months since that fateful incident happened last 18th June 2009 (Thursday). I lie if I’ll say I’m over it, well I guess I will never be. From time to time it keeps on flashing back, all the sour words fired keeps on taunting me just like a sharp dagger stabs me. How I wish it’s easy to forget but I find it really hard. I get easily affected whenever I see somebody from their origin because it makes me feel awkward and aloof for I assume that they might cause me trouble again. It’s the first time it happened to me and will never let it happen again for I can’t afford to handle another pain which I don’t deserve and I am not liable of.
All along I still have this fear knowing that nothing is impossible that anytime something good or bad will come up. Even if I tried to fool myself that things will slowly be back to what it used to be but I guess I have to stop fooling myself. Those hurting words still tortures me and stopping me to act normal again. Believe me I tried but whenever related instances appear to happen I tend to move 10 steps backwards to ensure that I’ll be at least away from danger. It would be better to eliminate those past negative incidents which turned to a chaotic situation.
Why I can’t leave this issue behind since it’s already part of the past and stop myself making a fuss out of it? See, all first things that happened in our lives are categorized as unforgettable although sometimes we prentend to forget but it will always remain down our memory lane. Let’s admit, we all have our own first experience in life may it be good or bad we still have to accept it as our first. Having your first will always be part of your life story. Tell me have you ever forget your first boyfriend/girlfriend, first date, first kiss, first embarrassing moment, first happy experience, first travel, first ride on a plane, first heart break, first lie and the list for first goes on and on and will never stop as we journey to life. So I believe I’m one ordinary human who never forget her first although embarrassing and humiliating but it is still my first. You may forget what comes in between but first will always remain first. But then again, my point of view may be different or contradicting to others but what the heck that’s what I believe and I will stand for it.
My statements may be appalling but I guess we’re born to have different opinions and beliefs in life.
All First in Life will never be forgotten, so I guess that fateful incident will always be remembered...
All along I still have this fear knowing that nothing is impossible that anytime something good or bad will come up. Even if I tried to fool myself that things will slowly be back to what it used to be but I guess I have to stop fooling myself. Those hurting words still tortures me and stopping me to act normal again. Believe me I tried but whenever related instances appear to happen I tend to move 10 steps backwards to ensure that I’ll be at least away from danger. It would be better to eliminate those past negative incidents which turned to a chaotic situation.
Why I can’t leave this issue behind since it’s already part of the past and stop myself making a fuss out of it? See, all first things that happened in our lives are categorized as unforgettable although sometimes we prentend to forget but it will always remain down our memory lane. Let’s admit, we all have our own first experience in life may it be good or bad we still have to accept it as our first. Having your first will always be part of your life story. Tell me have you ever forget your first boyfriend/girlfriend, first date, first kiss, first embarrassing moment, first happy experience, first travel, first ride on a plane, first heart break, first lie and the list for first goes on and on and will never stop as we journey to life. So I believe I’m one ordinary human who never forget her first although embarrassing and humiliating but it is still my first. You may forget what comes in between but first will always remain first. But then again, my point of view may be different or contradicting to others but what the heck that’s what I believe and I will stand for it.
My statements may be appalling but I guess we’re born to have different opinions and beliefs in life.
All First in Life will never be forgotten, so I guess that fateful incident will always be remembered...
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