SqUiGgLeD ThOuGhTs...

Yesterday is already part of the past
Today is the reality I have to face
Tomorrow is something I am worried

Too many thoughts linger in my head, it’s such an obscure feeling in which keeps me bothered… An unexpected spurt for me but a baloney for others… Certain matters that drowns me each day, ghesssshhh… No matter how hard I try to compose myself it swiftly sinks in and pushing me deeper… Albeit, I am trying doubly hard to over come things, but it seems time doesn’t permit… Terribly wanting to be out of this predicament though, but there are circumstances which are hard to ignore simply because it’s reality… Yah, reality bites and nobody can stop it… I am yearning for a stress free and most likely out of depression but until now I am still struggling in the midst of uncertainties… What’s holding me back from moving on? Actually, I really don’t know… Maybe most of you will ask, “What is it? I can’t merely understand”, well, it’s one of the top 5 rants of married women (definitely not about my hubby)… I can say that roughly 60-70% of women went through this kind of rage, so it means I am not alone… I hate to scuffle when I know somehow there’s a possibility of losing the brawl and the chances are not in my hands… I may sound so weak and hopeless, but I am not, it’s such a relief whenever I write what’s within me… Pardon me for I’ve been so pessimistic and too shallow… One thing is definite, I will not give up!!! For the meantime, all i need is a big hug and a loving kiss from my hubby, ghessshhh, that makes me feel better...

Well I guess its part of life, we have to fathom every bits of it!